A "moment"

Uh-oh...here we go...another attack of the panic.  
Sometimes, I really do just get too caught up in the details.  I mean, why wouldn't I when I spend an entire chunk of my day trying to cross things off my list and feeling failure when I can't? Or go from cake toppers to, well, cake to makeup to flowers to decorations, all in a matter of hours?  And can't seem to answer regular, run-of-the-mill questions anymore because my decision making ability has been compromised?
I need to not make myself feel guilt that I have no idea what the perfect cake topper would be or if I skip the gym or if I can only cross a couple of things off my list today.
I am trying.
And Kenny loves me anyway.

I just snuck away to take another peak at his ring that lives in my sock drawer. I have been meaning to for awhile now (even just to check that it was still there) and thought that, feeling overwhelmed, now was the perfect time.
First, it was still there.  Phew.
Second, I really just can't wait to put that on his finger and be standing up in front of everyone to do it.
And that's why we're doing this.  At the end of it all, Kenny will be my husband and I will be his wife and most other things will remain the same (except a certain collection of old t-shirts that will "disappear", of course) and that's what we want. Just to be happy. Together. 
So I just need a mental break sometimes. And not only that, but the written permission to do so and not have my very existence wrapped up in this wedding. I cannot keep having a daily Crisis of Natalie due to this wedding. Having it be ONE OF the most important times in my life and not letting it be THE most important thing in my life is a very thin line.
And I was never very good at balancing on those.