March 11, 2010

you call this "normal?"

Well, I had another one.
Two nights ago, I was once again plagued by a bad dream. Not just any ol' bad dream, mind you, but a "I failed at planning the wedding" nightmare.
I've had a couple before- one involved having to do my own hair, only to fall down, down, down, in broken elevator with my mom (terrifying...I mean, I did my OWN HAIR).  The other dream was a bit longer and more excrutiating- everyone present was pretty ho-hum about the ceremony and as it was going on I realized I didn't have a photographer, the officiant didn't even pronounce us husband and wife, we didn't kiss, and I didn't remember my dad walking me down the aisle.  I felt like the biggest failure as I was walking out in the parking lot, alone, to the reception (wherever that was...probably a gym somewhere).  I never saw Kenny in either of the dreams, so that was disheartening also. 
BUT, all that to say these dreams happened months ago, right as planning was beginning and it was entirely possible to mess it up.  I was told these dreams were "normal" by a few trusted sources and left it at that.  I have been dreaming peacefully ever since.
Until the other night.  This was worse.  The details have somewhat faded over the last day or so, but I remember that it felt like it lasted the entire night, I somehow messed up which shoes I was wearing, and there were tears as I didn't plan on the cake.  Now, I have come to terms with these dreams, but if any brides out there ever read this and can feel secure in the fact that they are not crazy, then I will have done my part.  :)
On to florists!

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